should i?

hmm..
changing environment in a short term really such hard time for me
from one place to another..
from pleasant surrounding..friends that never thought that could be the most comforting
to better desired...unknown peeps and fear of tryin to fit in

although former place been my 2nd home every weekends..
althoug they still warm welcoming me there..
but...da feeling..that i'm not belong there keepin linguring in my head

plus..they seems more happier since i moved out
maybe my absence being a joy for them
is it such a feeling or just stupid thought???
but i glad..behind all these..i found someone loving me..if not..i dont know..maybe hihi

sometime i wish i could turn back the time
wish i didnt moved out
wish i would be happy with them
share the joy of frienship
share all the good moments
laugh on jokes together
teasing the youngsters
hmmm..i miss alll that since the moment i stepped out

but nothing i can do
what been done is done
nothing i could do to change that

sometimes..my bad intuitives saying
just forget all..avoid connections and i'll be free from all those missing
as i dont care..less i will be hurt inside

but..how can i

smiles projected..merely a false of myself
for sake of others
may someone hurt by words..but this is what i felt
become more sensitive...sparks of anger always on my tips

but simply overshadowed by my hypocracy act
along my selfishness
see how i wore my mask all these times

above of all
i really miss a203..i really do